I know through experience and by the trusted Word of God that when we are completely emerged in His Will there is a measure of success, there is accomplishment and harmony.
I don't believe this blog exemplifies this. After three years of writing Zingday, of pouring so much effort and countless hours of designing the blog, preparing for subjects to share and so many hours in writing posts (because it doesn't come easy to me, it can sometimes take an hour just to come up with three paragraphs) I've had to admit that this blog isn't within His Will.
In the first two years of the blog, there were many, many days that zero visitors came to visit my blog and this year it has stumbled up to a whopping average of 11. Clearly Zingday isn't the place to come.
But I persisted, believing that if I didn't give up it would grow, believing that if I build it they will come.
I had always dreamed that this place could be a place of encouragement, a place I could give back, a place to contribute and a place where I could share and influence what God has done through my life. But I know why this hasn't happened and I know why this blog has been a thorough failure. In these pages, you don't find the real me. In this pages, you find the me I'm trying to be, and often times a vain attempt to imitate other bloggers I idolize.
Zingday isn't within the will of God because I'm not being authentic to whom God designed me to be.
So I'm stepping back from Zingday. I'm taking some time off to reconsider and know what His Will is for my writing. I may cancel this blog completely or I may come back with a total makeover because my heart's desire is to write, to be a contributor but I know can't do that until I find the voice He has given me. Once I know I'm completely within His will, where the purpose is to glorify Him rather than me I'll consider blogging again. I believe that if I fix my eyes on His image and seek His approval only and stop focusing on the blog traffic these wishes will one day become a reality.
So it may be good-bye for Zingday but hopefully it just means it's the rebirth of me.
Thank you so much Mommy and Mom-in-Heart for supporting me, for encouraging me and visiting me here for these past years. Your love and support is priceless and my tears are just rolling heavily down my cheeks as I'm writing this, thinking about you. I love you both so much.